Take You Down ---至少不能让你受我连累
七年后，当 Nick 在发布他大热的第三张专辑《ASCEND》的时候，是否还会想起2012年吸毒过量后被抢救回来的那天？
背景故事
《Take You Down》是收录于 ILLENIUM 的第三张录音室专辑《ASCEND》的一首歌。在《Take You Down》作为《Ascend》的先行曲发布时， Nick 在 YouTube 的介绍页写下了长长的一段话，告诉了粉丝自己过去和毒瘾战斗的艰辛过往，并感谢这一过程中音乐、母亲和其他爱他的人给他的激励。
如今，31岁的 Illenium 是全球最有名的 DJ 和电子音乐制作人之一，《ASCEND》曾登上得 Billboard 电子舞曲专辑的第一名的位置，而凭借第四专《Fallen Embers》，他赢得了一项格莱美音乐提名。而他则和家人、女朋友、朋友生活在美国丹佛。
以下是他在 Youtube 上写下的感悟：
Yo Fam,
I've been wanting to share something super personal for a while and just wasn't exactly sure how to do it. I'm at the point now where I've heard countless stories from you. Some of you have said my music changed your life, helped you through depression, addiction, a lost loved one, the list goes on. Honestly, I feel bad because you don't know how much that truly means to me, because I've been there too... In the depths.
Six years ago I overdosed on heroin. I struggled with opiate addiction from a young age. I was trapped in it, had no passion, no direction, and truly hated myself. It was such a dark time for me and my family because when it gets bad enough, hope begins to dim and there's no escaping reality. I'm not telling you to preach or say how I found some magical cure or that everyone needs to live like I do. I'm the biggest advocate for people living their own lives and spreading their own love in their own ways. I'm just sharing my story and relating because music saved my life too. With everything that has been going on with my career, I always keep reminding myself of that. My main goal with music is to try and help people overcome their struggles and also enjoy the moment.
With all that said , 'Take You Down' is about my struggles with addiction and what it can do to families and loved ones. It's more specifically about my mom, and how no matter what, she never gave up on me and always continued to see the good even though all I was doing was messing up. To anyone struggling like I did, not just with addiction but anything in life, I hope you guys can find peace in your struggles and know that anything can be overcome. I've been clean since that overdose and I owe that to finding my passion and being surrounded by the most loving people I could ever ask for. Thank you for always listening and being open. Thank you for sharing your own stories and your love of music with me. Love you all forever : )
翻译
嗨，朋友们：
我一直想和你们分享一下一些完全私人的情感，但是却不知道该如何开口。眼下，我已从你们那儿听到了许许多多的故事。有的人告诉我，我的音乐改变了他的生活，帮助他渡过了诸如抑郁、药物成瘾、失恋……种种人生坎坷。老实说，我的感觉并不好，因为你们根本不知道这对我意味着什么：我也曾生活在那种糟糕境况中……深陷其中。
六年前，我遭遇吸食海洛因过量的事。我还很年轻的时候就和阿片药物成瘾对抗着。我踩进了毒品的圈套，生活没有热情、没有方向、自我厌恶。这对我和我的家庭都是一段非常黑暗的岁月，因为成瘾太深以后，就很难再回避事实了：戒毒的希望已经很渺茫。我不是要给你们讲大道理或者要说我找到了什么神奇的戒毒方法，又或者是要大谈什么你们都应该像我一样生活。我完全赞成每个人应该有自己生活和表达爱的方式。我只是想和你们分享一下我的相关遭遇，因为音乐也拯救了我的生命。当我的职业生涯日益发展，我也总是不断提醒着自己这一点。我做音乐的主要目标就是试着帮助人们克服遇到的困难，并享受当下。
总而言之，‘Take You Down’讲的是我和毒瘾的抗争以及这种抗争对我的家人和所爱的人的影响。尤其是我的母亲，无论发生了什么，她从未对我失去信心，总是以积极的一面看我——尽管我干的事就是把一切都搞砸了。对于那些像过去的我一样反抗着什么的人——不仅仅毒瘾，也包括人生中的其他种种问题——我希望你们能在反抗的过程中寻得心灵的栖身之所，而且能相信没有什么困难是克服不了的。自从那次吸毒过量以后，我再也没有碰过毒品。我也明白我得找回生命的激情并和那些我能寻求到的最有爱的人呆在一起。谢谢你们一直以来对我和我的音乐的支持。欢迎和我分享你的故事以及你对音乐的爱。永远爱你们 : )
歌词翻译
I didn't mean to hurt you when I hurt myself
当我伤害自己，我无意连你一起伤害
It's just an empty voice screaming out for help
空洞又凄厉的哀叫只是 为寻求帮助
No, I didn't mean to scare you
不，我不曾想让你失措
But I couldn't see
但我不明了：
That when I went to hell I was taking you with me
当我迈向深渊，我也在将你推入其中
When I close my eyes
而当我闭上眼…
I'm climbing in the dark
就仿佛正在黑暗中攀登
Trying not to fall apart
竭力只求不要跌落
Sometimes I get so high
看到脚下的万丈深渊
Falling is the only out I see
坠落好似我唯一的出路
And I don't wanna take you down with me
而我不愿牵连你一同坠落
You're the love in my heart
只因我真心地爱你
Only love in my heart
你是我最爱的人
Take you down
坠下崖……
Take you down with me
与我一同坠崖
Don't wanna take you down
绝不愿你与我一同
Take you down
落入深渊
Take you down with me
落入痛苦的无底深渊
#Drop#
This life is like a razor
这样的生活就如一把利刃
When it cuts, I bleed
令我伤痕累累
But it's in my hand
但这是我的抉择
And I'm doing it to me
是我在不断地伤害自己
Sometimes it's like an ocean
有时它又如一片幽邃的深渊
And it gets too deep
而我深没其中
And there's no way that now you could rescue me
如今你已没有办法拯救我
When I close my eyes
而当我闭上眼
I'm fighting in the dark
就仿佛正在黑暗中搏斗
Trying not to break your heart
竭力不要让你伤心
Sometimes I get so high
有时在我恍登极乐
Falling is the only out I see
堕落是我唯一可见的未来
And I don't wanna take you down with me
而我不愿你与我一同堕落
You need to let it go now
如今你该放下这一切
Before you drown
趁你尚未被牵连太深
I know that you won't understand
我知道你不会理解这些
But you need to let go of these hands
但啥时候放开拉着我的双手了
'Cause I'm going down
因为我无药可救
And I don't wanna take you down with me
可我不想牵连你一同饱受痛苦
(You're the love in my heart)
(因为你是我深爱的人啊)
(Only love in my heart)
(我最爱的人啊)
#drop#
And I don't wanna take you down with me
可我不愿牵连你一同跌入深渊
(You're the love in my heart)
(因为你是我深爱的人啊)
(Only love in my heart)
(我最爱的人啊)
Take you down, down with me
怎愿致你痛苦，和我一样痛苦